Despair!

My credit is rapidly going down the drain! My faith is waning right now. I owe so much money to so many people. I pay so little rent and it still isn't enough. I am having trouble feeling positive. We don't have money for Christmas presents, we really don't. We don't even have money to buy stuff to make Christmas crafts! It is depressing. I would be thrilled if $10 000 suddenly dropped from the sky. It would be gone, but I would be thrilled.

I don't know what to do. My few months with little work and few tips have been hard. Not to mention the under-abundance of student loans. So nice of the government to remove the tuition freeze and not increase student loan funding. I want to cry. I hate this.

I got a letter from the MSP collections division today. I sent in my application for premium assistance but they take up to 3 months to process. In the mean time, I owe them $672 (I am still trying to find a way around that).

I am finding it hard to have faith that God will take care of it right now. I know he takes care of lots of little things in little ways. Right now it isn't enough. I don't understand. We have all sorts of crazy stories about how He has taken care of us. What is it this time? Is it me? (Rhetorical question, by the way. Just in case someone has something trite to say about tithing).

*SIGH*. We will be OK. Tomorrow is a new day of praying for tips!

I'd say I'm sorry for complaining... but I'm really not. This is my blog and my feelings. Perfectly Christian or not, it is how I really feel.

I think my biggest fear right now is that someone is going to give me advice.